I asked Zabeth how she and Paul were doing. She wrote to tell me and her sentiment touched me. With her permission I print it for you to read. A qualifier first: I have mentioned before that Paul and Zabeth have faith in a sovereign God and this faith relationship is important to them. It is evident in the way she deals with her feelings.
“How are we today? We have had a hard last few days. While we have been sick we are doing better in that area, but I have been feeling low emotionally. I miss my children daily, but sometimes when I realize the trial will be coming to an end eventually I start to fear that a decision will be made to permanently separate me from my children forever. How does a parent live through the final goodbye visit? If one was guilty then one could understand and feel the ruling was deserved and if one truly loved the children one might acknowledge that it would be better for the children, but when it is a wrong decision, when love is genuine and no harm done...Will God expect this of us? Would this bring Him Glory by sacrificing our children in order for us to take up a call of helping others and thereby bringing Glory to Him in the answers to prayers of other parents? Or will bringing our children home bring Him Glory? What is His will for our lives? Will we see earthly justice? I pray so, but these are some of the questions I fear to answer.”
Just imagine parents having to wrestle through possibilities like that simply to come to terms with an inconceivable outcome.
The options as Zabeth reviewed them were these. Perhaps in the permanent forfeiture of their children, God has a purpose to accomplish a glorious ending in some undisclosed way. Although she ventures down that dark road far enough to conjecture whether childless, she and Paul might be expected by God to be able to help other people with damaged lives. Or perhaps in returning their children to them, God will be glorified in this family, in their story of tenacity and faith, and their nurturing of these children into adulthood so that each walks an upright life or accomplishes something remarkable.
“What is his will for us? Will justice be done? I pray so, but these are some of the questions I fear to answer, she wrote.” What an honest response this was to my “how are you doing?” query. The legal and judicial sides not withstanding, this is the human side of this sad and in some ways merciless mess.
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I for one, have seen enough of the trial to decide for myself that it is my belief the Baynes will be reunited with all of their children.
ReplyDeleteThe feel I get from the judge is that he would give something to each side. A standard 6-month supervision order could be issued for example, as opposed to giving a decision that lambasted the Ministry.
Perhaps the kids would be returned in a graduated basis, just to appease the Ministry and reduce long term mistrust of this new chief judge by the Ministry. Who knows.
In the unlikely event one or more children are not returned, they would simply work on plan B. One cannot help but think of worst-case scenarios, and this is part of angst all parents with removed children must go through.
Appeal perhaps. Find a secret friend to adopt the children so they can still see thier kids. Become a permanent advocate for other families in this situation. Post the story online, tell their story. Follow the children's progress from afar, and bid one's time and reunite with the children later.
The moments at home alone without one's children is the time self-doubt can set in. However, it is a better condition than overconfidence.
No words from men are sufficient to beguile the Baynes from the grief of such overwhelming ministry-created atrocity. Let me share that the following 2 verses that gave tremendous strength and support when I went through the same oppression:
ReplyDelete"But those who hope in the Lord, will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." (Isaiah 40:31)
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." (2 Corinthians 12:9)
Thousands of parents are being oppressed by their government's "child protection" agencies worldwide. You are not alone.
Fear not your enemy and set your eyes on God. He will never fail us. May His will be done. This is a test of faith and perseverance.